more freebies

Hey a couple more freebies... check out scrapperlicious.blogspot.com. she is giving away 2 acrylic albums! Love them! And also check out socalscrap.blogspot.com... I love the valentines day stuff they are giving away!

i am around

I only have internet on my phone right now cause we haven't paid our internet bill in months... oh well crap happens! Anyways.... I will try to pop on when I can. I am sure the phones will get shut off sooner or later. But I want to let you know kelsy is giving away some super super cute earrings and a page charm so check out her blog. Jillofalltrades-acraftymomsworld.blogspot.com...... love ya kelsy!

HELLO OUT THERE...

Sorry I am such a slacker... well lets see, what is going on in my life.... John has a REALLY good lead for a job, I dont' want to say it's for sure and jinx it though. Rikki-Lynn is almost 3.. and smarter than ever.. I love her!!! she has her days where she is REALLY nice to her baby brother, and days where she is a BRAT to him. She is still sleeping with us... which I LOVE and HATE... I know i'll miss it when she doesn't but at the same time, I WANT my bed back! I want to sleep next to my husband... that's not tooo hard to ask right? and Xander.... my neighbor calls him X-Man!! He is getting toooo big. Sleeps in a toddler bed already... yes he is only a year and a half.. but he loves it! He started this new thing lately.. where he screams like a girl!! it's cute, but at the same time.. OUCH!! He is getting so big.. I love my little Xander man!!

MY new blog

I did it.. I started my depression blog... here is the address...

http://thedepressionjourney.blogspot.com/


go check it out... :)

still here!!!

Hey people, I just wanted to let everyone know I am still around, John has not been able to find a job yet, We don't have money for me to go see my mom! (oh how I miss her) HAD TO PAY 20 FREAKING DOLLARS FOR CHRISTMAS EVE DINNER AT MY GRANDMA'S (THAT'S A WHOLE 'NOTHER VENT) barely surviving, but I am still here, I guess it could be worse.. oh and soon I am going to start a new blog just for my venting and keep this one for my family.. so you don't have to hear me complain! OH.. on the good side of things.. I SCRAPPED!!! HOLY CRAP CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?!?!?!?! OH and I did 3 PAGES!!! yep... 3!!!! that is the first time i have scrapped since... mid SEPTEMBER!!! HOLY SMOKES!! kisses to all!!!

Some good news!!!

Ok.. so I will give you some good news for once.. LOL
John got the OK to go back to work!!!! YAY!!! i am so excited, now comes the fun part of trying to find a job.... that is going to suck! He has made some calls, and put word out that he is looking, but most people are not hiring until after the first of the Year.. UGH!!
My mom has been clean for a year!! YAY!! now some of you prob. don't care and I am ok with that, but any of you that know addiction and how hard it is to overcome, this is a HUGE milestone!!
My birthday is this week. December 11th to be exact!
We put up the Christmas tree!! (not decorated yet, but at least have it up.. that is a whole 'nother vent)
I have scrapped, nothing too fun, working on Christmas gifts for the family, but it's a step forward!
My sister Jessica had a baby, Jonas Robert! born the week of thanksgiving and was 7lbs 8ozs. doing good, and in my opinion pretty cute!!

Ok that is enough happiness for now.. i am sure i will be back with some more depression venting soon! I wish i could get it under control! It sucks to be so sad all the time, i know some of you know what I am talking about! Some days I can tell it's going to be a bad day, before i even get out of bed, and on those days, I resent having a job, cause I just want to sleep alll day! and I don't care that i didn't capatalize all my I's.. you will live.. LOL

OK some more depression venting

If you don't want to hear it... scroll down.

Ok.. First of all.. MONEY!! Money is a big problem in our house right now. I can not take my daughter to the dr. because we don't have money for the meds they would give us, and I am pretty sure they would give us meds, her tonsils are DANG NEAR touching and RED!! Poor baby, I hope to come across some money SOON!!!! Not to mention, I don't know if i will have enough gas to get to work tomorrow. and that causes a BIG problem!! I am the only one making money right now, and if i don't have gas, how am i supposed to get to work to make that money?? I have to have 250 by friday to finish paying rent! My 2-week Paycheck was 250 short of rent for the month.. so OUCH!! I don't know what we are going to do, I hope our landlord can work with us, so I can pay him when I get paid again (at the end of the month) MILK... there was NO MILK in my fridge when i left for work this morning! My neighbor has foodstamps though, so my husband will be going to get milk soon! and I also called WIC and got an appointment, so they can help us, just while john is out of work. We went from john BRINGING HOME OVER 1,000 a WEEK to me bringing home between 700-750 every 2 WEEKS!! HOW SAD!! Hopefully he will get to go back to work soon!
I still have no MO-JO to scrap!! maybe someday i will.. If not... keep watching this blog, cause it will turn into a SELL EVERYTHING SCRAPBOOK RELATED site ;) j/k I wouldn't sell it, but have been tempted at times.
The funeral on Saturday was one of the HARDEST THINGS i have EVER had to do!! To watch Jake's wife sit there rocking her brand-new baby with a blank to the world look on her face, was soooo sad, and to see his MOM Break down...He was only 24! TOOOOOO young to die!! my heart goes out to the Blackham family!
To make it worse, my cousin (who was also really really good friends with Jake) DID NOT GO TO THE FUNERAL!! I wanted to SMACK HIM!! I mean really my heart hurts for him! He is going to regret it in a few years, and he can not blame it on money, cause i paid for the gas! As a matter of fact, there were only a couple people from Kanab there, Me, Kristy, Liz, Blake and Amber Soderquist! I wish more people would pull there head out of their butt and realize what is really important in life!
I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I kept hitting snooze until it was time to leave.. OOPS.. cause i still had to shower!
My friend/neighbor hasn't been home lately and it sucks cause she can always make me smile. WHERE YOU AT CULLEEN?????????
SHANTI- Hey girl.. I know you are going to read this.. so i have a question for you.. how do you and your hubby and kids do it financially? I want tips, so call me or text me and let me know.. I cut back on A LOT of things, and i try to shop good, using coupons and stuff.. but seriously... we STRUGGLE!!! Even when John was working we were struggling, and our rent is only 950. so how do you do it????
K that is it for now, I am sure i will be back in a while to write more complaining!!